Life aint easy man

 aight another week another blog. Hmmm I don't know where to start bc I honestly reach the end of each week and Im so brain dead and exhausted that I don't what I even accomplished (or if I accomplished anything). Im straight up survival mode right now, but Im just taking it day by day and doing my best with what I got to work with. So let's start with the title because it kind of ties into the beginning of the week. 

This little selfie was taken on Tuesday to celebrate my last clinic shift at Mountain Country Foods Clinic. I have done 235 hours at this clinic and I as much as I have learned - Ive had to put up with quite the unprofessional crap so yeah I was excited to be done and move on to greener pastures. Well not even three days goes by and I get denied by my school to start my next clinical rotation at Desert Pain. Which by the way I was supposed to start on Thursday (less than a weeks notice). SO right now I'm still waiting to see if I can quickly change the denial to an approval, but chances are I may have to return to Mountain Country Foods to finish off another 35 hours. Why can't life just be easy? like just for two seconds I want something to go smoothly. But no - nothing but obstacles 24/7 it feels like. Anyways - trying not to worry about it and we'll see tomorrow what my advisor says. So there is my bad news of the week. 

I took Wednesday off work for two reasons... 1. because I kinda just can't work three 12s in a row right now so taking it off only made my work week two 12s (which is still difficult) and 2. because I had a big test to take for school that was due Thursday morning. Wednesday morning I finished out some last minute studying and took my Pre-predictor board exam. So the real board exam obviously comes after graduation and the predictor test comes in the last month before graduation. So this was the PRE predictor. Pretty much just to see where I am for boards and what I need to work on - but it did count for a grade which kinda sucks because I didn't score well. The goal is to get at least 70% because that means passing the boards. I got a 65% which Im actually pretty proud of because Im pretty close to being prepared for boards already - BUT that 65% really sucks when that's your grade. Anyways - I still count this as decent news for the week. Im definitely not mad about it. But I will say I need to work on my attention span. The hardest part of the test was sitting there for 150 questions (an hour and a half) and staying focused and sitting in one position (back problems). Even taking my NCLEX years ago - that was the hardest part was sitting there and staying focused the whole time. My highest scoring sections were Mens Health and Urology with CV, neurology and Ortho rounding out my solid topics. On the other hand,  psych (a whopping 33% haha obviously I hate psych), pediatrics, STIs, women's health and some others on the lower end of things. I think it's hilarious I scored highest on Mens health - very obvious where I work and what Im comfortable with. Anyways - now I know what I need to study a little more I guess. 

Thursday was back to work - our old CNA, Josh, went to nursing school and is now a nurse resident at the VA. He worked with me on Thursday. It was fun and I was grateful for a little extra help. My back didn't hurt as bad, but doesnt mean it didn't still hurt. I had a patient request I go out to his truck and get his gatorades for him. So I told my buddy, Carolea, to come with me and luckily there was a stranded, empty wheelchair in the parking lot that I rode back up to our floor. Pretty good day of work. I was supposed to then work Friday day shift, but my boss was looking for OT on Friday night shift. I asked if I could just switch my shift from day to night and it actually worked out! So woohoo got to work with my night people, make weekend and night differential, plus my body was way happier working a night shift where I wasnt so busy. Win win win for me. It was a good shift, can't complain. 

I had originally planned a temple appointment Saturday late morning when I was still planning on working Friday day shift and having Saturday completely off. Well I changed it to a later afternoon appointment, but honestly before going to bed Saturday morning I figured I would just sleep through it and not go. Luckily I woke up around 1:30 pm and felt rested enough - so I jumped up out of bed and headed to the temple. It was a good time at the temple - I did initiatory and I always tend to tear up listening to the blessings. With many physical, mental and emotional trials happening at the moment I feel peace hearing those words. I know I won't be cured of my conditions, but at least I know through my savior I can have help going through life because he knows and has experienced everything Im feeling. I got to my appointment early in hopes of starting earlier and therefore leaving earlier, but they were busy so I just waited for 25 minutes. In that time I opened up the Book of Mormon and read a random chapter. Mosiah 4 - I don't know the scriptures very well, but I would say this is probably my favorite area to read from. Anyways - one of the versus was talking about how good and powerful God is and how we need to go to him and repent and he will forgive you and then it says "if you believe all these things, see that you do them." That line stood out to me because I believe and I even think I can say I know - I mean Ive had experiences that have given me the knowledge and surety of things, yet I still don't do. I have my things that I do like I'm a very reliable tithe payer and I attend the temple regularly. But other than that I don't do much. I guess it was a slap in the face, yet satan was right there telling me these things can wait, they might actually have to wait until I have time. Until Im not already sacrificing so much to just get by. Until I'm in a better mind set or until I'm happy enough or willing enough to put in the effort. Idk but chances are that time will never come. I know there is no better time to start than right now on being better and doing better. But hey I think Ive started because Ive already acknowledged it right?? Well there's my word vomit - I guess we can all do better I just need to do better in A LOT of aspects of everything. But like I said Satan might get the best of me until the end of the year and temple occasion might be my best until then. We'll see. Ok to round out Saturday evening - Mom and Dad came up north. What?? they came up north?? Yes, to go to Sams Club. They took us out to Olive Garden for dinner which was delicious and we started watching the BYU game until there was a rain delay. Once we got back to the hotel Dremma picked us up some pizookies, we played Skyjo and stayed up late watching the rest of the game. BYU won, but man was it a stressful game to watch. Some pretty trash refs with some down right awful calls to screw BYU. But they ended up tying up the game with less than 20 seconds left in the 4th quarter which took us into overtime. Will Ferrin kept us in the game with a field goal that took us into double overtime where we were able to score and hold Arizona's offense. 33-27 - a gritty game. Now I know what Frank means when he says being a BYU fan will take years off your life. Sheesh. 

Sunday morning was church at the YMA ward. Woohoo Ive upgraded to the married ward! Jk we went to support Drew in his new calling as first counselor. They ended up having to postpone the sustaining so he actually didn't get officially called, but dad was able to ordain him into the office of high priest. Good job Drewby! I only thought old men could be high priest but I guess that's just how good drew is. Dad didn't have a photo for Jacks email this week so Mom and I took one for the team and posed with the beautiful Y mountain on this pretty fall day. 

Then Cafe rio at Dremma's place after church. OH plus more Skyjo. Well the rest of this Sunday has been full of homework and once Im done with this blog it will continue to be more homework due to last night's homework being sacrificed for the BYU game. Worth it. In between homework assignments today Ive been watching episodes of SpongeBob to let my brain relax. haha Alright I think that's about all I got for this week. its 10pm which means Im making good timing on all the stuff I gotta get done today. 

Oh last but not least - it's good having Sethy home.